张扬的共享空间

    首先不得不祝贺一下一个多月的“季后赛”终于结束了。考试，考多了就变成了一种例行公事，考之前例行公事突击一下，考试的时候再把刚刚背的半生不熟的东西给吐出来。真正出乎我意料的是我竟然一点都不为如此悲惨的绩点感到丝毫的感伤，很好，这正是我所想要的，过程已经足够艰辛，再去为结果而多分泌一点有害激素不是自找苦吃吗？

    这段时间我不时在回忆自己的大二生活。总结起来，大二上学期，目标明确而充实；下学期，缺乏追求而毫无激情。在填那个综合素养表格时，我惊讶于自己所有能够写得上的东西都发生在上学期。是啊，上学期有一阵子曾经目标十分明确，就是要拿高绩点、学好英语然后出国，于是日子过得简单而又充实。然而，经过很多考虑之后，我又打消了这个念头。没有目标的人生是悲惨的，我至今还没有找到什么令我信服的值得我付出的目标。一个学期顺利得可怕，顺利到我自己都不知道该继续做些什么，于是紧接着是一个寒假一件有意义的事情都没做，开学初四五天内看完40多集连续剧的轻狂。再接着就是绩点像坐着云霄山车般往下猛跌。其实很想得开，一份付出一份回报。

    现在的心情异常平静，我似乎已经知道了我要做些什么。我把“健康”、“友善”、“勤奋”作为假期的座右铭。单纯的目标、简单的生活是最最美妙的。

Baby is Born Crying

“Why all babies are born crying rather than smiling? Because he knows his life in the world will be tough.” ——Someone’s QQ signature.

I’ve been in blue mood recently. Maybe it’s the continuous burdensome assignments that intrigue my anxiety. I remembered one of my friends once asked me, in a joking tone, “Are we kind of persons that people will consider to be unhappy at their first glance?” I didn’t know how to answer because I sort of agreed with him.

Female eagles(鹰) will drop their babies from the cliff as soon as they are born, surviving are only the ones who are strong enough to fly. When a group of wolves are attacking a wild boar(野猪), there must be one or two wolves sacrifice for the team’s sake. That’s the law of nature. Of course, we humans are different. But from these stories, I kind of have some strange enlightenment about the meaning of our life. What are we living for? Where does our happiness come from?

From a negative perspective, we’re living for desires. And our desires are just so parallel to animals’. Where does our happiness come from? Our happiness comes from the fulfillment of our desires. A dog will stop barking fiercely when given a piece of meat. A baby will stop crying and turns into a smiling face when nursed. Of course, as adults, our desires are far more than that. I kind of have a sad conclusion that God gives us, as well as animals, desires when we come to the world. And to ensure that we’ll do our best to fulfill our desires, God also creates something like unhappiness and anxiety. If we don’t do as the God tells us to do- to fulfill our desires, we’ll feel unhappy and anxious. But when we have met the God’s satisfaction, he’ll grant us a gift called happiness, although that won’t last long, soon there’ll be another task God commands us- another desire for us to accomplish. That’s why we constantly feel unhappy while happiness is always so short-lived. So who’s the God? The God is the nature. Why is he giving us desires? I don’t know. I guess someone will say it’s for the course of all creatures——survive, multiply. But does this course really exit for ourselves?

I have another explanation for why baby is born crying. Because he knows he is just a tool of the nature to run his course.

哈哈，第一篇博客就写这么消极的东西实在有点。。。我平时也有写英语日记的习惯，觉得这篇写得还可以所以挂出来晒晒，呵呵。谢谢大家光顾！